Sitting here listening...

   For the moment I am sitting on a couch, laptop in lap of course~! with Michael sleeping soundly beside me. It's hard to explain why, but in these moments when he sleeps I think I love him more than when he is awake. (not to say that it is better in any way) but just that it makes me feel closer to him, knowing that he is so comfortable with me that he can lay there with his guard down. (secretly I want to attack him~! Mu Wa HAHA~!) *evil glare* ah but I won't, love him too much to do anything to him except to pat his head gentle and kiss his forehead.
   Ah...sigh.. But my relationship with him is always so rewarding, and I do not believe that I have ever felt more at home, or more myself with anyone else. If the emotional benefits weren't enough already, he is always one to give me a pep talk when it is needed. (confidence booster? a plus!) It is difficult to feel low or to lack confidence around him, since he is always ready to voice his opinions where appropriate.
   Soon we will be getting a house together though, and I can't help but feel a bit nervous! I've never lived with anyone but friends (my current location being my sisters home) I have never had the chance to stay with someone I was dating, and for it to be a place to ourselves? Even if it is just a rental, the chance to decorate it is going to be amazing~! I cannot wait to go crazy on the place~! But if you can conceive it, Michael has never even met my mother. Not that it is much of an issue, but just that I come from a very disapproving family that always has something to say about everyone, and I am not sure that they will warm up to him as much as I would like them to. Not to mention I have never been too close to my mother, not in the same ways as most girls would like to have mother to daughter relationships. My mother and I have always been very distant from each other emotionally, we can talk to each other easily enough, but it has always been as if there is a fence between the two of us, a fence that my sister has never seemed to have issues jumping over.
   Yet even still with all my worries over my family and my fears of things that are new, I am able to say that I feel wholeheartedly that being with Michael may very well be the best decision I have ever made, and that I have no problem seeing a future with him, one that will be filled to the brim with love and one that will always be give and take. I can not help but to feel as if I have found the perfect person for me, and I am ready to step into this new world with its new experiences, and reap all that it has to offer with him by my side.

~ Rebecca